One DaySome days my chest feels so heavy and my heart feels cold,Yet it burns so much that it could tear itself a hole.It gets hard to be so far apartBut my dear, one day you’ll get to feel the pounding of my heart.For now I sleep alone, and even on the warmest of nights it gets a little cold.But one day I’ll get to hold you close, and I don’t care if you’re a thorned rose.For I know that life hasn’t been good to youAnd at times painted you a shade of blue.And even if I can’t scrape away the paintI’ll always be there to help you repaint.-S.P
Thoughts of YouMaybe the constant thoughts of youis my punishment for not trying hard enough.-S.P
Another GalaxyHer eyes were a portal to another galaxythat I had yet to discover the wonders of.And I didn't want the journey to end, evenwhen I knew that it was over.-S.P
EverythingOther people shouldn't be seen as your everything.Because that would mean that if one day they wereto leave, you would be left with nothing.You should always be your everything.-S.P
Never AgainMy hand is stained red from the blood ofthe parts of me that I killed for you."Never again..." I whisper to myself asI wash it away. Never again.Oh how sweet and innocent I was,thinking that you were 'the one' because you lookedat me like I had painted the world.But in between my brush strokes and anoccupied child's smile, I didn't notice youlooking at her as if she had created that world.-S.P
Some Things We Can't UnderstandI know that you don't love me.But some days I just like to think thatmy love was so great that you didn't knowwhat to do with it.So you just left.But other days I can't help but think thatI was just pouring my love into a pale with holes.And I know that none of these are true.That deep down I know that I will nevertruly understand it.But I guess sometimes we make up our own littlestories just to keep ourselves from going insanewhile trying to figure out what went wrong.-S.P
The UniverseIn you is the beauty of the entire universeAnd just like the universe, I'll spend an entirelifetime trying to discover new wonders that accompany you.Maybe I'll never discover them all, but even justa piece of you is enough to enchant me.-S.P
Whispers of DeceitYou said that our love would last foreverAnd that you'd lie to me neverI believed your every wordBecause your whispers of deceit I had not heard.-S.P
The Ocean and The ShoreYou were the oceanAnd I was the shoreOnce the tide goes out and makes its way back inMy love, we will meet again once more.-S.P
Coffeeguts pile over whitesheets and blankets.i spilled them to youlast nightand you still saidi looked lovelya black sticky stain.how many chemicalscan your stomach handlebefore you have to drown me?how much bitternesscan you swallow? ~~~you are mycream and sugar, darling.and it tears me in halfwhen you split your skin.if you aren't carefuli might not be able tosip you up again.i am a powdery shadowcold autumn breezesand breathless cloudsbut if i could keep youbreathing, my world might bea little more alive
Feel like shit? Read this. Hey you. Yeah you, reading this right now at this very moment. You are awesome. No, really, you are. You may not believe me, but it's true. You don't see it because you're upset right now. Whatever you're going through right now, whatever has upset you or turned your life upside down, just know that it won't last forever. Nothing good lasts forever, that's true, but nothing bad lasts forever too. Eventually whatever you're going through will pass, you'll move on through healing over time, and you'll be able to be happy again someday, don't worry. As long as you don't give up. You may never completely get over it, or it may take years or more to move on from, but I can promise as time goes on the pain will become less and less. It may feel like no one gives a fuck about you, and you may want to give up on living, but please don't. I can promise atleast one person out there gives a fuck. And if no one does, then I do. If you have no friends, I ca
psittacosisthere are feathersin the endless pitof my stomach;digitigrades diggingin the clavicular head of my chest.pigeons crowning,crooning frommy gut, travailingfrom the bottom up;wings slippingfrom my lips.before it is clawed openby the talonsof these hallowed doves.in a bed of anklesk(n)eeling me over;a million sheets of quillsscaling my sheath;and religion-weight overpreyed game,my frame anglesfor halos.
WeightWeightThere is a weightYou asked me to hold.(Just for a while,Just for a while.)My tendons strain and snap,I lack your Atlas strength.The crushing force of gravityMakes me weak, makes me sore.Take it back, take it back,But you’ve gone away.I’m sinking down, I’m sinking down.The water rises to my throat.Pushing down, rising upDrowning and drowning and drowning.Take it back, please take it back,Where have you gone?I’m pinned beneath this weight,With water to my nose.My lungs fill up with salt,Choking and screaming and breathingOnly freezing thickness of water.Where is that mild friend oxygen?Where has he gone?My stinging eyes are blind here.I cannot to escape, unwillingTo shed this leaden snareWherein I dwell confined.By You.I grip it tightly.Surely I will die,Sweet air has left my bloodcompletely.I lay back and let black water take me,Frozen fingers loosen on Your weight.And all at onceit falls awaycompletely.I watch i
GayI am gay.I'm not a disease, I'm not a problemI'm not an afflictionI don't need treatment.I don't need helpI'm not sickI'm not confusedI'm not a sin.I am gay.I'm your daughterYour sisterYour friendYour co workerYour classmateYour acquaintanceA complete strangerI am gay.I need love, just like youI need smilesI need supportI need a hugI need a friendI need a familyI need acceptanceI need understandingI need youI am gay.I know what love isI know what pain isI know what hate isI know what life isI am gay.And I need you to love meThe same way you loved me before you knewI am gay.And I have experienced hateFrom more people than just youI am gay.And I wont change.I wont give up.I wont back down.I wont pretend.I wont lie.I wont deny.I wont hide.I wont hurt.I am gay.And that's okay.
what to say when you can't say i love you anymoreyour eyes were always soft, even whenyour voice went hard. for a while,i treated you like a god and i’mnot saying that i worshipped you,but i let you hold my handsand i told you all the sins i carriedin their grooves.i have since been told that they were neveryour burden to bear,but that doesn’t stop me from aching for youevery time i catch myself thinkingabout how it would feel to kiss the girltwo doors down. it’s been a whilesince i’ve confessed and i’m not surei remember how. the thing is,i don’t feel that guilty anymore.the thing is, holding hands is onlyten fingers away from letting goand we got so good at toeing the line of the cliffthat when you finally jumped, i forgoti was supposed to follow.sorry.i swear i thought i could keep you floating.i swear i didn’t mean to let the waterinto your mouth. sometimes i wishi could kiss you dry again but i knowthat’s not how this thing works, that’snot the way
The Last TimeLike the ink from my penMy blood spilled and with it I wrote about you,Vowing to myself that this would be the last time.And it was.-S.P