Like the ink from my pen
My blood spilled and with it I wrote about you,
Vowing to myself that this would be the last time.
And it was.
The UniverseIn you is the beauty of the entire universe
And just like the universe, I'll spend an entire
lifetime trying to discover new wonders that accompany you.
Maybe I'll never discover them all, but even just
a piece of you is enough to enchant me.
Whispers of DeceitYou said that our love would last forever
And that you'd lie to me never
I believed your every word
Because your whispers of deceit I had not heard.
The Ocean and The ShoreYou were the ocean
And I was the shore
Once the tide goes out and makes its way back in
My love, we will meet again once more.
TwilightI was like the day and she was like the night.
We spent our times waiting for each other
Meeting in secret, only at twilight.
Lies"I love you", you said.
Your words so empty and cold
Only because you were afraid to be old and alone.
Now is that love my dear?
Or only forced feelings out of fear?
I fell for you
Believing your every word to be true.
But then one day our "love" had run its course
And you had not even a single remorse.
You had met someone else
And I hope that you don't tell lies to her as well.
It Still HurtsI knew that it would hurt
but I never knew that it would hurt this bad.
Your voice is like an old song that I had on repeat
and loved, but now it's filled with so many painful memories
that I can't listen to it anymore.
I had to throw away the old bed sheets because your smell still
clings to it like a frightened child does to its mother.
And no matter how many times I wash it, it still smells like you.
My hands burn every time somebody touches them because I can still
feel the scars from when you last touched it; with a tear upon your
face as you left me without a home and displaced.
Every morning I wake up and I feel the cold empty space beside me
mirroring the state of my heart and I fall apart all over again.
Falling in LoveThe thing about falling in love is that
sometimes there is no one there to catch you.
You are EverythingYou are amazing.
You are the smiling face,
That gave that kid
Better hope for this place.
You are the helping hand,
Even if you didn’t know it,
That helped everything turn out
Better than planned.
You are the voice
That helped someone
Make a vital choice.
You are the joke
That made them laugh
And gave them that stroke
Of happiness that they needed.
You are the bright eyes
That light the way,
A lantern of hope
Through the fog of lies.
You are their push towards
Their positive afterwards.
And you are far from worthless.
Are the most important person
In the world.
We are all characters
In someone else’s story.
That pivotal point,
That pushes them from misery,
And leads them to their glory.
I Will Love MyselfSilence was at my doorstep.
Rain fell from the storms of my eyes
and hit the cold earth of my cheeks.
Sunlight fell down my face
in gentle waves.
And blood tinted lips
smiled only slightly.
The gentle spring
that bloomed inside my chest
had begun to grow
and replace the winter
whose frost had held tightly
onto my heart.
Silence was welcome.
Tears were shed in joy.
Sunlight was here to warm
and blood to live.
This was it.
I had made it.
I know who I am.
I locked you in my closet,
in the recesses of my mind.
I kept you in the dark,
I kept you in the stagnant, static,
strangling air for what seemed like
years because you couldn't
remember what day looked like anymore.
(You would sit facing the wall,
scratching letters into the paint,
nails curling and cracking upward.
"I love you,
I love you,
I love you," over and over until
you would bleed from your eyes
because you couldn't
keep them open anymore.
That paint was toxic.
You fed off the fumes of dried
polymer and you were so sure that
if you tried hard enough
the words would go through
It must've taken months.
The world traveled around the sun
like you traveled around me,
hovering from a distance
so that I wouldn't burn you.
They all say that it was my
gravity that pulled you
toward me, but it was always you,
They say love is blind and I believe it.
But we didn't start out
loving each other like we do now.
Eat Something, PleaseIt's your fault, you know.
It's you who's spewing your guts into the toilet,
like powdery snow.
Every day you hit the bathroom floor,
grasp the porcelain rims,
and your vomit echo through the door.
I hate it! I hate it, more than anything in the world.
I wish you could just tape your mouth shut,
and your noises I could ignore.
It's all about you, and the agony you've been through,
but through your selfishness and saliva,
I hope you realize I suffer too.
I stay by your side when you treat me like crap.
When you scream at me and yell,
I've always had your back.
How I wish I could purge when life gets too tough,
I wish I could be weak like you,
but my strength is just too much.
How wonderful it would be, if you could take my place,
and when you saw your broken form,
then you would see the pathetic look on your face.
But “plop, plop, plop” your vomit continues to roar,
and through the repetitive screech,
how I wish I could slam the door.
I wish I had the strength to leave your
I Won't Let You Become Like MeI saw you fall to the floor.
Because you couldn’t take this anymore.
You laid there and said to me,
Through tears that fell from your eyes,
“Who cares if I were to die?”
Reminding me of those hundreds of times,
I’ve seen people bend and break.
I’ve gotten so used to smiles that are nothing more than fake.
I remembered standing by silently,
Watching everyone collapse around me.
Seeing bottles scattered around,
Broken glass covered the ground.
And I wondered to myself,
“Is he ever going to get better?”
And I watched you as you died,
Slowly tearing yourself apart from the inside.
Memories are still flickering,
Behind my eyes.
I suddenly remember my own cries,
For someone to save me.
Because I was so close to falling,
That the abyss seemed more inviting,
Than trying to hang on for a moment longer.
Because my arms were too tired,
To hold on.
I am back in reality,
Watching you fade away.
And I see myself,
And the countless other people I’ve wit